I am trying to feel renewed, I am searching for rejuvenation
If I sought not these things
I would feel the loss
that is ever-growing as the distance through time
expands and I feel that we are never to know one another
The knowing I thought I had now seems like a vague impression
pressed into my mind
like seeing a stranger on a cold day with a familiar face
that sends a stab of recognition
only to be lost and forgotten
And that is how I feel
and shut out into the cold
in the most cruel of ways
you closed the door to my tears.
Yet you say you love me still?
What trick is this or is it a game to which the rules I am unaware?
I have no way of knowing
no insight into silence.
And so I watch twelve hours turn into twenty-four once more.
And I begin to see that we are farther away with each passing day.
My heart will begin to build an impenetrable fortress around it to survive this crushing blow.
It would take a mighty knight with a dedicated heart and an iron will to find anything that is tender within me.